Dreams are a series of images, sounds and feelings occurring in the mind during sleep, accompanied with rapid eye movement. Dreams typically last in the range of 5 to 45 minutes. The contents and biological purposes of dreams are not fully understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history. The scientific study of dreams is known as oneirology.
Wah! Such an interesting explanation! As long as I am alive, I can tell you that I dream most of the nights in my life and weird thing is that I get to remember them and they will also continue on the next night of my sleep! Now that is really interesting!
Once there were professionals said that people that dream always is because they have not made their dream come true yet...There are so many things that they want to do in life but they just simply cannot get it done.
I had started working about three months ago and all I can tell you is that I had forgot all the things that I want to achieve in my life. I have no time to think about the plan that I had for myself. The sad thing is that this has happened to most people in this world. About 70% of the people in this world has forgotten their dream especially when they started working and then that is it...their lives will revolve around the working routine! AND its so meaningless...the way I see it. Imagine this...If I ask you to stay in a workplace for 13 years will you want to do it? Today I had come to know a person that has work in a place for 13 years! THis has never strike me so hard before because I am doing the same kind of job too! As a teacher we put our time to teach other people's children..putting our hope on them and groom them, but in the end, they turn back and take a bite on us, on our mental health especially, they make us feel angry, as a result increasing the chance to get cancer and etc...when can we stop and think about ourselves?
People of the world! Don't forget your dreams! The dreams that you used to have during your school days does not have to be a fairytale! Make it come true! IF you want to travel around the world, go ahead! FInd ways to do it! IF you want to be a nurse instead of a babysitter, go for it! THere is nothing too hard in this world unless you take a step forward to start reaching it!!!!
DOnt let your dream reach you only while you sleep, but let it reach you in reality too....
(Please be reminded that things that is said here is straight from the heart. It does not serve to condemn any party or association. Be careful of how you judge this content. The writer does not responsible for any conflicts, misunderstandings that this content might cause.)
There I go wondering about what I should do again. It has been about three weeks since I graduated from Mission College ( I don't mind you go and search about it) I am living almost pass the first quarter of my life and I still don't know what to do for my future. The problem is that I do not feel like doing what I have been studying. That is a very big problem, as it is like returning to the time of no degree at all! I keep my degree in its rightful place I didn't use it, nor touch it. Just leave it there. So what should I do now? Continue studying? But study what? Continue living, but living what?
I realized that I have been blocking something from getting to me. It is something that I used to let it lived with in a wrong way. You see, God and me, have been associated with teaching. Since I get to know God, I been taught to serve the world, bring glory to God and etc, and that is through becoming a teacher, or a nurse. (The church taught its young people all of these, that is why the field of studies that they had provided throughout the world mostly deal with schools and hospitals. not that it is bad, but too much of something will always invite the opposite result) Other than that, other field is not encouraged. Does it really have to be this way? We are poor so we don't get to choose? Since I join the church, the young people are encouraged to do things in service for God. They are motivated in such a way that it is the only way to serve God--"You do this, this (teaching, nursing, work for the mission, be a missionary, go stay in the mud, rural area, etc) Then you are said as loving God/ in line with God/ if not you are considered to be 'disconnected with God'". That is the kind of feeling I get.
I suddenly realized what MC is trying to plant in us. What one of my professor was trying to tell was correct. Yes, they try to train the 'soldiers of God', by making us doing things that is in service for Him, but the problem is it is not something that we want to do whole-heartedly! How should I explain..The whole time I carried through my education in MC was by telling myself that God wanted me to do this, yes, He wanted me to complete my degree, so that I can serve Him after that, but this is not the only way! I felt it was the only right thing to do, as persuaded by the dean, the teachers there but it is not! yes they keep on saying you can still study though you might not like what you study and then after four years you might like it but hello! It is not always like that! You will ended up like me...for instance, I like music I should have gone to study music when I have the chance, instead just stuck with education, teaching kids, and be good to them, no more! I don't have this kind of mood anymore! No way! So back to the point. I was taught that in God you are to do nursing or teaching if you want to serve Him well but hello! IT is not like that! How about for the people that do business? Engineering? Firefighter? Are they not serving God? This make ones feel like there is no other way in your life when you trust God. Hey! God is not like that! God let you come to this earth is to want you to be happy, and live your life to your fullest! Come on! that is why you see there are variety of people doing different things in the world, and they are still serving God! They do not have to be a nurse, or a teacher or something that considered by the the people, sad to say, in the church to do that! Oh my goodness~ So come on!
Dear friends, there are many people that will advice you to do this or that as career, they might advice you that this or that career is good in market now or etc but hey, do not let them influence you! you must take charge of your life! Because that is your life not theirs! Not your parents, relatives! But yours! That is why God gave you consciousness, the ability to choose, to reason, to fight! So go ahead and live your life! Do what you want in life (Something that make u a useful person to people around you and benefits the world of course, no crimes, please)If you do not know, go find it! Figure it out! Sometimes it does not mean you need to go to college and get a degree, it could start right at your first footstep where you are at now! As for me, I wish I could hit the restart button and spend my four years in music instead. I want to play, perform, and seeing people get satisfied will bring the greatest joy. And from here, expand! Doesn't mean have to stay there forever...and make people love music the way I like it. Music should make you happy, not stress. Cos then, it would become a duty, not something you love and passionate anymore. You need to be passionate in doing things, but make sure that it is for the right reason, especially it can fulfill your life with happiness, and your satisfaction in life as it is God's ultimate purpose for you to be on this earth.
It has been ages since the last time I seriously sit down to tell my story, my mind. I have been reading quite a lot recently, well, Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and then Breaking Dawn. Lots of things had been going on in my mind as I let myself enter into the world of these books, a world seems too real to be true, some of which I think, how I wanted it to be real, to be this way forever, and then suddenly it felt like a peace to me if this can really be…if it happens the way just as it described, to be true. Not any easy fan to be as I am as I rather not call myself one, I stretch out to find the real life information that I needed to judge, to reason if vampire really exists in this world that I am currently in now. It’s not a doubt that by doing that I am putting behind other religious things that I believed for years. Suddenly even that does not seem real. Nothing is real to me, except for what I can see and touch and experienced physically. Sometimes it’s just hard to say, if sudden story is real or not, only the author himself/ herself knows the reality of every bit in the story.
Our mind is fascinating in a way that it thinks, reasons and desire things. During college, I had many desires and things that I wanted to do as to how I want to live my life after graduation; but all of these desires just disappeared now that I had graduated. You can’t feel the way I feel now…graduation seems to be taking away the way of life that I tried so hard to live well, a life style that seems to be permanent to me in some corners of my heart. Now that everything had finished, it seems that a long sweet dream been awaken, and here I am, still not knowing what I want to do after two weeks of graduation. Maybe I had gone back to the time when I first decided to enter college many years ago, or maybe I’m just lost, and letting myself drawn into the numbness and the unconsciousness that I wanted to feel about the world, that just want to stay where I am now, feeling the peace where no one would interrupt and disturb….it’s just like listening to soft, smooth and slow piano music in a quiet garden with slow wind blowing to you from one direction, or it is just like, sitting near the waterfall and feel the cold breeze blowing towards you with someone playing sweet melody besides you. In that way, all of my frustrations, confusions and lost feelings seem to fade away…
I have a mind that dreams every night no matter where, when and how I sleep…I still dream…that sometimes I am able to hear a piano melody or a symphony that I never heard before...sometimes it sounds like something familiar that I had heard but then it also seems unfamiliar as there were blending with other kind of music, and it is just so beautiful that not even anyone in this world can create. But as I awake, I can only remember a very little part of it. Sometimes I was able to play it again in some instrument but still, it just does not sound as beautiful as in the dreams…so sweet and peaceful.
Reading Twilight gave me the exact kind of feeling that I long to have, that sweet, beautiful and peaceful feelings as you let yourself enter into its world. Especially if you had watch the movie of Twilight itself, reading it is much more real as there are faces for each character from the movie that can be used to imagine in with the book. Sometimes the scenes of certain character in my mind seem so real that I thought I saw it in the movie too, but actually it’s just in my imagination. I can’t doubt but to say that the director had chose its actors and actresses well for each character in the book. It would be much fun to see it turn into series instead, with details for each scene in the book been acted out, such as that of Smallville for Superman. The idea of immortality in Twilight is not a bad one as with immortality, normal human doesn’t have to worry not having enough time to experience and do everything that they wanted to do in the world and they could take their times to learn mistakes in their lives and not doing it all over again. With unlimited time, I could start all over again, instead of graduating with Psychology and Education major I could explore other things and be a different person. Maybe I am just regret for not knowing myself well and instead follow people’s stupid advice and ended up graduating with something that I am not pleased with. Well, maybe that is one of the main reason why I like to dwell in that world and don't want to come out.
Different than before, I am not going to draw any conclusions here. It is up to you to draw conclusion now....
I still remembered that I watched a Cantonese drama series last year, called When a Dog loves a Cat. As the name of the drama describes, you can tell that it is about cats and dogs or more specific, its to describe the unique relationship between pets and people. There is not only love story between humans but also between animals too! Animals are cute and loving in general, especially if you are able to understand them and gain their trust and take away their shield of defensiveness. They wanted to be loved and cared for and as a result, you will feel that they do the same too. That is why pet therapy is successfully at work for those that has emotional problems especially when it has to do with the word, LOVE.
In this movie it is said that lady should learn to be like a cat, so quiet, soft and yet arrogant and steady and man should learn from the dog, cares for the people around him and in the end will be able to chase the one that he loves, just like in this case, the dog, Siu Ba cares for the cat, Can Can (instead of Man from Mars and Woman from Venus..klekekekeke)
So sweet right? Look at below.
I had come across all kinds of cats since February. All of them gave me different insights and ponders. If you say that being a human is hard then that means you haven't know how cat lives.
Follows will be lots of pictures about cats and the ponders that I get from observing them. As there are many kind of humans out there, so does cats.
The cats above were from a barber home shop back in Kuching. This three cats are peacefully laying on each other to keep warm and sleep. If you notice that the cat in the middle is an old cat and is the mother for the other two cats (or still considered as kitten?) These cats are so fortunate because first, they are not abandoned but has a family that takes care of them and food provided too. All they do is make out, sleep and play with their tails, and, look cute... like this:
They were all sleeping and I try to wake all of them up. But it appears that only the 'kittens' wakes up.
Cute right? Well...
This is the mother! Even look old from the face!
Emm maybe this one is not so cute... As I came back to UTM, again I see cat with kittens. This time they are in black and white (Cos the mother is black and white ma...and the father should be lo!!!!lol) Again I would say that these cats are StIlL! Fortunate. Is it cats' mating season?
I'd spotted that this cat has been pregnant and is expecting that it will give birth sometime soon.. and it just happened after I get back to UTM. If you ask me who is the owner for this cat, I will say that all of us that are living in the block are the owners, because we give food, and most of all, provide a box, like below for the cat to give birth.
Every cat has its own beauty, even though its only black and white. I like the cute kitten that lays just above the mother below. Though it is scared of me but it still do not back up from its original laying place. Isn't it looks like its going to fight with me? :p
Well this black one not bad also with its fragile look :p
Actually I'm impressed by this cat (the mother cat) Why? Because it just being so strong and stubborn and willing to do anything to protect its kittens from any harms that might come its way. Well , how do I know? Because this cat just moved all of her kittens and foods the next day I returned to visit and it just ran away from any human it see...unless you have food la! Well at least it still gets food for free... but...look at another cat below...
If you look carefully, its a pregnant cat carrying a big bag of leftover food in a plastic bag. Imagine the weight of it its the same as the cha kueh tiaw or chicken rice that you packed from the shop. And look at this cat, it actually carried this bag from the very end of the long building to the other end. Estimation? Just imagine the width of a very long hall. I followed this cat for half of the way to just get a shot of it and it just so determined to get away from me, but at last, it stopped to rest.
See, even it stopped to rest but it still did not let go of the bag of 'food'. Come on, I don't plan to steal it from you!!!!
But in the end, it realized that the food is not that delicious after all, so it came to find me! Its just how amazing that this cat managed to find me that was sitting at a very far end of the building. Poor cat... wish I had something to give her... Now this is another cat...its a male instead.
It just get so friendly with the people in my classroom so suddenly. They were all having mandarin test and this cat just appeared from nowhere and wondered around the classroom for most of the time that we were there. Its just hungry...
If you see carefully this cat actually has lost his right eye!
Though hungry, it still determined to show us his best trick and stunns.
But too bad I just don't have any food to give to this cat :( At the end this cat just disappeared with disappointment. Oh... Now how does that feel? Tell me if being a human is easy or hard...then compare yourself with these cats that I had described. Still, being a human is better, but as a human we should also treats other things around us better...so next time if you see animals like cats or dogs, just give it a pat on the head or if you have phobia of touching them, give them your food lo...cos they don't find food as easily as you...
It was a sunny Friday 730 in the morning. I was having hard time to wake up from my sweet dream as I slept around 3 o'clock in the morning. However I got to wake up as this is the day that I had longed for, the day to go sampling and set another start for my practical. It was exciting and yet nervous.
I arrived at the lab to get things ready around 745 am. We've got the things ready few weeks back but now its just for the final check. Additional things that we need to get ready are icebox, and some life jackets. By 815am, we were ready to leave for Fishermen Jetty Kampung Ladang (Fishermen Jetty Ladang Village).
Around a quarter passed 9 o'clock we've arrived at the Fishermen Jetty of Ladang Village. There were many ships, both big and small, parked around the jetty.
Having no time to stop by to eat breakfast, I am thankful that I saw this.
Doesn't ring a bell? Well....this is a seafood restaurant! Of course I am not going to have a big meal here, but at least I can find some food here. I ended up having a Nasi Lemak (this food is also served in Mission College Cafeteria every Wednesday or Thursday lunch but vegetarian, with red sweet mashroom, peanuts, boiled eggs and white rice. However the real Nasi Lemak taste better!!!!) Though not alot, but this Nasi Lemak managed to give energy to my body that is lacking of rest.
The only two men that came for this sampling trip from UTM was respected Dr Shahir Shamsir that make this trip possible and right, Mr KTC that is going to be responsible for fish catching. (It is nothing easy!!!)
Here are things that we will use for sampling, from the left is the fabric gloves, plastic gloves, autoclaved ice-cream stick and Bijou bottles for the mucus.
More Bijou bottles, gloves and cloth.
Parafilms (made in Chicago) to seal the gap between the Bijou bottle and its cover. This is to ensure that the mucus does not spill off from the bottle and to reduce the possibility of other elements from the air to get into the bottle.
Some life jackets to ensure that we can still float if any of us fell into the sea.
We need to wait for the people that will take us to the sampling site. They are the people that owns the boat or the sampling site (or at least have connection with the owner of the sampling site?) if not we will not be able to make it. This makes me realized that there are many things that we cannot do alone. We need the help of other people.
The people finally arrived after around 10 minutes of waiting. No longer later the boat arrives too. After wearing our life jackets, all of us are ready to get on board.
The picture above- getting on the board. We need to walk down to the riverside to go on board. The trail was a little bit slippery as it rained a night before.
Picture above showing all of our stuff and begs on the boat. The boat that we used for me was a little bit shallow. A little bit imbalance for one side could cause the whole boat to be filled with water. Having not getting on a boat for a long time makes me a little nervous :) I'm just afraid that I will be the first one to fall into the water!
The look of the jetty from far as we traveled away. Sometimes we just don't realize that we are living in such a beautiful world, that every corner around us does look beautiful in one way or another.
Another side of the jetty. I wonder if we could still see this kind of view 10 years later...
Doctor enjoying the view.
About 3-5 minutes later, we finally arrived at the sampling site. This sampling site located middle middle of the water. There were many water tunnels with different nets in which different fish were raised. We only want Ikan Siakap (Barramundi fish) and Ikan Kerapu (Grouper fish).
Ikan Kerapu (Grouper fish) or scientific name Epinaphalus Tauvina is the kind of fish that has dots on the appearance. Today, 20 of the world's 162 known species of Grouper are threatened with extinction according to a survey by conservation groups. Grouper fish are popular food fish throughout the world, but due to their slow reproductive rates they are particularly vulnerable to overharvesting.
Ikan Siakap, or in English is known as Barramundi, also called Asian Seabassor Giant Perch with scientific name Lates Calcarifer.Unlike Ikan Kerapu, Ikan Siakap is not categorized as endangered. Ikan Siakap can grow up to 1.8m and 60Kg (6`& 130 lb), common to 1.2 m.
The floating fish tunnel net or the sampling site, is taken care by a few male crews and they have their own place to sleep and to cook as well.
If you look at it a good way it is like a village house that is good for spending holidays and looking at the natural surrounding.
But from near, it is a place to grow fish.
First we need to find out the tunnel net that contains the kind of fish that we want, and then move our things there.
Then prepare a space in the tunnel net so that we can put the fish that we had scrapped the mucus from.
Then we get our net, ice cream stick and Bijou bottle ready to scrape the mucus from the surface of the fish. To do that, we need three persons to completely do the job-- a person to catch the fish using the net, a person to hold the fish and another person to scrape the mucus from the surface of the fish. We started with Ikan Siakap (Barramundi fish).
Then we are ready to begin the whole process of sampling. It is just easy-- catch a fish with the net
put it on a flat surface that can lay the fish flat; then cover the eyes of the fish with cloth and make sure it does not move,
and then the third person, scrape.
Me doing the scrapping part.
Trying to put all of the mucus into the Bijou bottle. I am telling you that it is not as easy as you see it!
After Barramundi fish, we proceed with Grouper fish. Scrapping the Grouper fish is not as easy as scrapping the Barramundi fish, because Grouper fish is heavier, bigger, fierce and ugly. Well ugly may not be one of the factor but really, Grouper fish is really ugly for me!
Lets start off with catching. It was unfortunate for us that there were two kinds of fish in the tunnel net of Grouper fish, which it makes the catching harder.
Instead of trying to find Grouper fish, Mr KTC just catch the non-Grouper fish and put it in another tunnel net.
To scrape from Grouper fish we need to make sure that the tail does not flip, because once it flip, it is hard to control as it is big and heavy. Some of the fish has injury on the skin so we cannot scrape from it. That has limits the numbers of our collection. We had targeted around 30 bottles (sample of mucus from 30 fish) but instead we only managed to collect 12 samples.
We rise the net a little bit to make sure the fish does not flip and then get away. However, we had accidentally let go a fish. Each fish is estimated to weigh around 5-10 kg and each kg is around 10 -15 riggit....so imagine how much we need to pay if the owner demands us to pay for the fish that we had accidentally let go.
Due to time factor, we only could take sample of mucus from 15 Grouper fish as we need to reach UTM before noon.
The video above shows the process of collecting mucus sample from the fish.
The video above shows the journey back to the jetty.
We gave our last beautiful post for this memorable place before leaving :) Most of us were feeling tired and dehydrated at that time. All that in our mind was going back to the hostel and have a nice long bath, delicious meal, and maybe...a nice long nap :)
This is just the beginning of a long hard work, because what needs to be done after this will involves many trial and error testings. Visit daysinutm.blogspot.com for the daily researches that will be performed upon these mucus :) Another blog featured by SunSeT.
It has been two weeks. Two weeks for not updating anything in my blogs. Now I don't know where to begin to talk about Pendas... Oh well... everything need its beginning point, so lets us begin with wikimapia.
Wikimapia can tell you every places in the world, from the broad view of the whole world and then to the most specific place that you want to know. Pendas... I personally do not know where Pendas is. But after a few landmarks, I was able to find it through wikimapia. First, you log into wikimapia. The link is above.
After log in you will see the page above. Focus your mouse pointer to Malaysia. Under search type Pendas, and then, you will see the page like below.
The little place that has been marked in a square box and oval is called Jeti Kampung Pendas or the Jetty of Pendas Village. For our group we get on board to go to the sampling area from the opposite jetty, which is called the Fishermen Jetty Kampung Ladang (Fishermen Jetty Ladang Village). Now lets follow the direction of the arrows in the picture and it will lead you to the place that we had done our sampling.
Following the direction of the arrows, we are moving towards leftward up of the map. Johor Bahru (West Malaysia) is on the left and the Singapore is on the right. The place for sampling is at the opposite direction of the Tuas Second Link to Singapore.
From the left we passed through lots of fishing villages and as well as mosques. On the way we also can see lot bird that has long beak catching fish by the shore.
Now going straight up we reached our sampling area, which is a place that has lots of nets with different sections, and each of the sections contains differrent kind of fish. These fish are raised in this area for dealing purpose. The water here is sea water thus fulfilled our research criteria. The chance to testify the existence of sea bacteria is higher.
The Affective Teaching method is actually led by Dr Edward Roy Krishnan. Who is Dr Edward Roy Krishnan? Let me introduce here a bit. Dr Edward Roy Krishnan is a Malaysian with a Psychology Phd. He is very much into teaching and how to provide students with environment that enable them to learn comfortably and at the same time making feel good about themselves. Dr Roy believed that it is important for the students to feel good about themselves before they could start learning. Because when you feel good about yourself then you will have the confident and then you can succeed in doing anything or to master any new contents. I personally had learned under Dr Roy for about a year or two. Through the learning, I established skills that could motivate myself to feel good about myself and also how to motivate others. Right now I am using it for my mandarin class and it has work well so far.
In a classroom context, the best way to deal with students is to become their friends, with that you can understand the struggles of learning and thus can adjust way of teaching and enable them to learn it 100%. It also called create an learning environment where students are comfortable to do what they want to do or need to do in order to enable to learn properly.
Dr Edward Roy Krishnan is now very popular in Thailand as he promote his ideas to the world there with many researches that he had done. I felt fortunate that I was able to learn from him, though it was only for a short while. Affective Teaching is the best!
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