Yet again...

I feel different again, when I woke up this morning. And hey, its because of yesterday. Felt like I had gone back again...I saw him yesterday, after a few weeks. Yes he is back! I feel so happy when I receive his returning news...there is no word to describe other than happy and surprise! Feel like I could jump to the sky! When I sees him, it felt as if we had never gone through that unpleasant experience...that separated us. He saw me and he held me his drinks...it feels so much like before...and I am sooo comfortable with it. How I wish there is more! From the time where we sat down together with another friend till we all parted, I have been analyzing him...

He wore that ring that was bought when we first started...at first I wasn't sure if that was the ring but after that I am sure...I kept wondering, is he trying to tell me something by wearing that ring? I wish he is trying to tell me something, something that my heart been waiting, regardless of the change of seasons, weathers, my heart still stays the same.

You know, there is one thing that I find to be true...I can be very angry if someone hurts me or been not nice to me but to him...I found that after all these unpleasant experiences, my heart is still loving him, regardless of the bad that has happened...why? I wish I know... I went home yesterday with old thoughts in my head, refreshing what had happened before and the thoughts that came along with me at that time. Before I receiving his returning news, I read a story that reminded me and him. We have so many things in common in that story... and our ending is kind of the same like that story too, a sad story, except that the heroin in the story died. It is like, when a relationship is long, we tends to forget the sweet memories or elements that enlighten us about each other..we tend to forget the good and the way we feel attracted of the other side...then when that happens, many other unpleasant things will follow. The devil will tempt us with different things that can bring us away from our love ones...

Hmm... I think I will always come to my blog to express whenever I feel this way again. I just hope that one day we can be together again...and hope that we can grow closer to our God up there...I will keep waiting and waiting, while doing things that you want me to do at the same time...yes I am doing it! I hope you can see it! I miss you... ... ...