I　am the only one that's left behind in the past. It seems that the history has repeated itself again. WIth lots of familiar feelings, actions to be taken at this point of time, I can't believe I actually haven't change a bit??!!!! I just wish that right here right now, there is someone that would come and save me...save me out of this misery! It is miserable! How then I can get out of this? AM I really cursed? why can't I just let it go?? what is there for me to consider more? whose heart am I afraid to break? I must be crazy. I'm afraid the next person that's going into the mental hospital would be me :) hahahahhaaa!

No matter how hard i tried! no matter what I do! I am still fail, in every aspect of my life. NIce. career, relationships, interests, hobby or just to be good at something. it seems that i just cannot catch up with the latest fashion of today's way of living.

I shall let go......then.